Independence Day Comes Early!

This year, so many changes have transpired in my life and in the life of my family.

We are almost completely organic.

We buy as many products as possible from our local community.

We are growing our own food and sharing what we have with our neighbors.

We are on a summer church fast. Instead of attending our neighborhood church, we hold a Sunday brunch in our home. We celebrate the Sabbath with good food, good friends, and lively biblical discussions.

We are investing more deeply in the lives of our neighbors, and as a result we are finding ourselves taking on issues like hunger and homelessness (among other things).

Our oldest daughter is now licensed to drive.

I've been angry with God for some time now. Angry with my church. Angry with the universe. Just freaking, blood boiling angry. For too long now, that anger has colored my world and my soul. I think however, that the rage is finally beginning to cool.

For the first time, I think that I am finally moving through the loss of my own health, the loss of our church community, into something new and completely different. Something good and whole and full of promise.

Of course, those of you still reading my blog have no clue about much of what I'm writing. I haven't been sharing my life's journey for some time now. For better or worse, I think that is about to change. I feel the words and the need to begin writing again. I feel the itch and the nudge to share what's rolling and festering in my fucked up little heart.

I think it only fair to warn everyone that I've changed this past year. I've been through a fire of sorts, and I'm different somehow. I can't pretend anymore. I won't apologize for who I'm becoming either.

If off color language and humor disturb you, then quit reading. If you aren't interested in my spiritual questions and struggles, move along. If being honest, authentic and true to myself bothers you, then bugger off.

Today, my Independence Day comes early!