I've been thinking a lot these past few days about how God has redeemed much of the ugliness I've encountered, experienced and perpetuated throughout my life.
Events like the one I described in "Jesus Wept", are no longer painful memories from the past. Instead, they have miraculously been integrated into the person I have become. Integrated in a way that makes me more whole, more compassionate, and more loving. For that alone, I give thanks to God.
But wait!
Just when I think an old hurt has been wholly and completely transformed, God gently says to me, "Wait a minute, my sweet one. It gets even better, I have been holding this for you also." And then God shows me yet another way he has redeemed and restored my old pain with new joy.
In those moments, I think the Holy One touches me in an eternal way that I do not fully comprehend, but am somehow still blessed to experience.
Do you suppose that God is ever finished redeeming our old hurts?
I'm not so sure that he ever is/does; and I for one, take a strange comfort in believing that God continues and will forever continue to manifest his eternal redemption of my own life's drama and traumas.
Believing this makes me less fearful somehow,
.....less fearful about what has happened in the past,
........less fearful of what could happen in both the present and the future,
...........and oddly enough, less fearful of my own powerlessness to prevent any tragedy, past or present, from befalling either myself or those whom I love.
Scripture tells us that love casts out all fear; and I think that I am finally realizing that this is exactly what God's perfect love has been waiting to do for me my entire life.
So, tell me! This enquiring mind would like to know!
What's God been up to in your life?
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