Our sandcastles melt
into salty mist and waves,
reclaimed by the sea.
Yesterday I began the process of simplifying my life.
I've taken the first necessary steps to begin the process of withdrawing from several time consuming areas of church leadership. Too much of my life has been wrapped up in the "doing". Now has come the time for me to simply "be" in the world. No more agendas, no more look good service work, no more hob nobbing with the senior pastor...it's all being whittled out of my life.
I'm literally carving space and time into my own life; time for God, time for my family and perhaps most importantly, time for myself.
Yesterday, someone asked me why I was being so selfish. I don't see what I am doing as a selfish thing at all; but it occurs to me that many I know are still too entangled in the dance that moves between the worlds of doing and being. Too many draw their value and self worth from their doing. I want to be, to simply be. For once, I choose to draw my value and self worth from my growing understanding that I am God's beloved child.
I desire to be reclaimed by the sea of God's love. Transform me Oh God, from this uncultivated state! Draw me into the tumultuous ocean of your love, shape me, transform me....I am ready.
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