Dreams and the secrets that bind us~part 2

Yesterday I shared a dream that has been troubling me this past week.

It's funny how various people in my life have responded to reading about this dream. My fifteen year old said, "Mom, when you write about things like this, aren't you worried everyone is going to think you are a freak?" My laughing response was, "As if they don't already?"

My husband just shook his head and said, "You have always had the strangest dreams..."

My friend Debb, hit the nail right on the head when she said, "Let the cats out into the daylight, feed them & heal them, in doing so you can heal yourself."

What "cats" have you hidden away from the light of day? What unnamed secrets cause you shame?

My biggest fear, and greatest shame, is that I am unloveable. This concept was literally pounded into me by my parents, and it is a lie that I have chosen to believe, and to sustain, and to hide, just like I have hidden all those cats in the basement of my dreams.

Over the years the lie that I am unloveable has reproduced and begat still uglier lies. Six toed, two tailed lies...evil untruths that have rooted and nested in the basement of my own soul.

Yet there is hope.

There is hope, because I have this sense, that God deeply desires to reveal, to release and to heal what I cannot. He is not afraid of, or shamed by my brokenness. He does not reject what is unloveable within me. Through the eyes of His compassion, God sees my "cats" for what they really are...broken, unloved, half truths about myself.

Don't you see? Don't you see how God aches with determination to love and to reveal love in us? It is His purpose, His unrelenting and timeless purpose, to pull us into His whirlwind of relational love.

In the light of day, I see now that God's love for me is remorseless. He will reach me through dreams, through His word, and through the words of others. He will do whatever it takes to convince me, to draw me into His light, to fulfill His love and His higher purpose.

I am left breathless, believing and grateful.

Thank you Father God, thank you!