The me I is...

How many cares one loses when one decides not to be something, but to be someone.
Coco Chanel

All of my life, I've been a care burdened "something". I've been a crappy assed daughter, a passionate lover, a blackout drunk, a semi-sane mother, a devoted wife, and a back door Christian; but, I've never truly been that unique and special "someone" God has created me to be.

I am pleased to announce however, that all of this is about to change.

Even now, I am taking the steps, albeit baby steps, that will allow me to take better care of myself. I am purposing time for prayer, time for exercise, time for daily worship, time to bake bread, (yes bread made with real, living yeast and unbleached flour). I am slowly reordering my life in order to claim the identity which God breathed into existence long before time even began.

And yes, Coco was correct. The cares do begin to slip away when a person makes the decision to actually be someone.

The trick I suppose is to choose the right someone to be. The best, and perhaps the only choice, is to just be ourselves. After all, "if you aint who you is, you is who you aint."

I'm ready to lean into the me I "is", and leave behind the me I "aint". I no longer need to worry that I might fall or fail. God is my safety net.

So, if you see some woman looking outrageously courageous and carefree today, say hello! That's me being the best me I is.